Step by Step.....

I started attend more regularly as i was seeing changes inside of me.

I started believing that I could really change, that I could really be actually happy, that God really did love me. This gave me the courage to start telling God everything I was going through and to ask for help.

I asked Him to help me stop watching pornography and the masturbation. To help me forgive the family friend's son for what he did to me and what he taught me. I asked Him to help me believe in myself, to be happy and actually look forward to life.

The changes did not happen overnight but gradually step by step, always remembering my prayers and going against my natural instincts of how I felt, I started to see the changes I never thought I would ever see. I actually felt truly happy. Life now became an amazing journey to look forward to now as I had so many prospects for my future.

Due to me realising true happiness, all I wanted was for others who were facing the same thing I had been through most of my life, to be aware that it can and will change with God. My whole life's desire became for God to use me to bring this to people. I remember hearing that God's Spirit was given to His disciples in order for Him to be able to use them abundantly.

I didn't really understand who the Holy Spirit was so I started speaking to an Assistant (someone who assists the Pastors and Bishops in the church in helping people) and asked her questions about who the Holy Spirit was.

Will be continued tomorrow....I love this part!! :)